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Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Rejected

I apologize for not writing for a while.

Many of you probably guessed that this big upheaval in my life was that I became pregnant and it caused me to question my life choices and the plans I've been making.

I found out I was pregnant about a week before my second MCAT attempt and it distracted me to no end. In fact I really shouldn't have written it at all and after writing it I should have voided it.

Its amazing how just a little distraction can really affect you. Because I did WORSE on my second attempt and THAT was the score I had to apply with.

Not surprisingly I've been rejected from the 2 universities that I applied to. Even though I KNEW I would be, I won't lie and say that a tiny part of me didn't hold out hope that I'd get an interview at least, because it did.

The first rejection I received last week wasn't so bad - but the one I got today stung more than I expected. Probably because it was my last chance for this cycle. And because it made it real that this is just NOT going to happen for me this year - and perhaps ever.

With a baby on the way, I'm not going to apply again this summer. I haven't really done much to improve my application since the last application cycle so there is no point anyway. And to be perfectly honest I'm not sure I have the same drive that I had when I initially started this process.

Don't get me wrong, I'd still love to go to med school but my priorities have shifted a bit and it seems to me selfish to pursue something this major at this point.

So friends...I'm putting my dream on hold for a bit, maybe indefinitely. And in the meantime I'm working on my Plan B.

Wish me luck!

2 comments:

  1. Kasia, it was a valiant effort and I'm super proud of u. U took a huge risk and tried ur hardest. Although u were rejected, i feel u actually accomplished so much over the past year. Not many ppl in ur position with a family and a mortgage etc would ever be able to take on the med school application process, let alone write the MCAT not once but twice! You truly are a brave and strong person. Your baby is a blessing and will give you more joy and satisfaction than a career in Medicine ever would have. May God bless your final weeks of pregnancy.

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  2. Congratulations on your baby. Although the admission result is not what you had hoped for, you've tried and perhaps you would re-engage this pursuit in the future. Thank you for sharing your journey and best wishes!

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